Sleeping beauty

Wouldn't it be amazing if you sometimes could control everything? Just sometimes because it must be exhausting to do it all the time. But what also is exhausting is that it's now half one and I haven't fallen asleep before four am since some point last week. And yes, I can sleep a couple of hours during the day but it's just nothing like a good nights sleep. And if that's not enough my back is in so much pain because of all the lying in bed without sleeping. So then I try not to go to bed until I get really tired which doesn't really happen and yes.. It's just a bad circle, I hope I get out of it before my lack of sleep makes my back worse.. Time for some warm milk with honey and a hopefully not useless attempt to sleep, goodnight.